Thursday, May 6, 2010

Still kickin'

Sorry it's been a while since I have updated my blog, but, I am going to try to keep it current. The last couple of months have NOT been my best, both, physically and mentally. But, that is about to change in a good way.

As most of you know, I have beaten cancer three times (third time was the charm) and I am still kickin'. Eight years ago was my first bout with Chemo and Radiation, not fun! Anyway, four years later, another round of Chemo and the last one, two years ago. Chemo was bad enough, but, the Radiation, that's some BAD stuff. Now, eight years later, the damage from the Radiation is showing it's nasty little self to me.

First and foremost, there is NO, NOT-A, NONE, Zero, sign of cancer on my last CT scan. YEAH, YEAH, and double YEAH.

Now for what is there. I found out that my left kidney is no longer working and the right kidney is working around 90%. This is OK, because you can live with only one kidney, you just have to go to the bathroom more often. I found this out the hard way on our trip to Arkansas a couple of weeks ago. I got the nickname "Tiny Bladder" since I had to stop every hour or so. Good part about that, I was able to refill my drink at each stop...........maybe that's why I had to go so often. lol (don't tell David that, he won't let me drink and drive anymore) The other thing I found out was I have a hernia in my belly button and I am waiting to see when I go in and have that taken care of. It will an outpatient surgery and I'll be back in business in no time. Man, I'm glad I didn't get the belly button ring. See, there is a silver lining to everything.
That's the physical stuff, here's the mental stuff.
When I found out the cancer came back the second time, a friend told me about CarePages. CarePages is a site for cancer patients, care givers and families to share their journey with others going through the same treatment as you. I have to say this site was a God Send, it let you know you aren't the only person facing this battle. It allowed you to share everything with a fellow cancer patient, your fears, your hopes, your treatment and most of all, you shared your heart.
I meet 5 AMAZING ladies on CarePages over the past 5+ years. We shared, cheered and cried together and became bonded in a very, very special way. Sadly, as of two weeks ago, they have all lost their battle with cancer. Two of them lost the fight within the past couple of months and it has taken a toll on me, to say the least. Every one of them fought a brave battle and I am going to miss them.
So, with all that said, I have taken the time to handle each situation in my own way and I am ready to take on the world once again.
I have had my pity party and I have cried a lot of tears and it's time to get with it and start living! I know this is what my dear friends on CarePages would want me to do.
So, look out, here I come.

p.s. Thanks for all the well wished and funny know who you are. lol


vivian said...

Wow-You deserved a pity party- sounds like you've had a rough couple months.. Sorry for what you have gone through and wishing you bright , sunny days!

DD Lindsey said...

You have been missed my friend! Not just in blogland, but at the guild meetings too! You have had a rough couple of months. And PHEW! Thank goodness you decided against that belly button piercing! Way to find that silver lining ;) I will keep you in my prayers and I hope to see you on the 27th.